Day Two of Self Love Challenge


I didn’t think I could start a blog…. yet here I am. Let me start by telling you a story. Picture this I was in my twenties, divorced, a new mom, living with my parents, a college-drop-out and to boot was working 40 hours a week bringing home $400 a week even with my bonuses. God Bless minimum wage! The picture of the American Dream!

My father died suddenly. I moved to the United States. One day sitting in my Grandma’s kitchen my Aunt (who’s one year younger) was telling me how she’d like to get into the nursing program but it was very selective and difficult to get in with its high standards.

All of a sudden I had this idea….I’m going to prove to myself and everyone else I can get in! Challenge accepted! Fast forward several months later. Everything was in place all I had to do was pass the nursing entrance exam. It was three sections math, science, and English. I failed utterly. But I was already committed and determined….I bought every prep book on the market that I could find in Borders (now Books-a-Million). I did every test question in every book. I spent hours sometimes all day preparing. I took the test again. I thought for certain I failed again. The admissions secretary called to inform me I was accepted into the nursing program. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! My overall test grade scored in the top 10% of the United States.

I want to share one of my favourite quotes from Marianne Williamson-

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

One of my “limiting beliefs” has always been that I can’t go back to school to obtain my bachelors degree in nursing. I don’t have the money, I don’t have the time, I’m not smart enough. However recently I threw caution and second guesses to the wind….I filled out an application online to the college nursing program of my choice and I submitted it.

It’s hard to take that leap….It’s scary and uncertain…. The fear is only temporary… though the regret can last forever. I’ve worked in long-term care the majority of my nursing career. I have had the privilege to be present during many deaths (the number would scare you). Those cognizant towards the end don’t discuss their successes, awards, or what they have accomplished, they talk about what they love and what they regret. If you take that leap every time you won’t regret or wonder because you took the chance! Step out of your comfort zone! If you want to change you have to be willing to be uncomfortable, it’s the best way to grow.

“We are all living in cages with the door wide open” – George Lucas

I’d love to hear anyone’s comments (negative or positive) or stories.

picture by Jean-Honore Fragonard “The Reader”

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