Day Eight of Self Love Challenge

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At the beginning of this year I was working over 70-80 hours a week. I wasn’t spending time with my family because I was too tired. I wasn’t working out because I had an injury which prevented me from doing so. I was not in a healthy place. I was even falling asleep on my drive home from work after working several 16 hour shifts in a row.

Then I lost my job and life forced me to slow down. It was the best event that could have happened to me, although I didn’t recognize it at the time. But then I started having time to spend with my son, time to have a full night’s rest, time to eat regular meals, etc.

In today’s hectic world it is so easy to get caught up in the future. I was in the mindset that I could accomplish it all. But at what expense? I wasn’t enjoying the moment and I certainly wasn’t enjoying life.

I started this blog and it has been very therapeutic and cathartic to write down my thoughts and feeling. It forces me to be honest with myself and it’s scary to put myself out there for the world to read. I’m realizing as I go through this 31 day self love challenge it’s not easy it’s a work in progress. Realistically I’m not going to all of sudden love myself. I have to slow down and take my time. Growth will not be instantaneous there will be set-backs and there will be progress. Direction is more important than speed.

A couple years ago I lived in the beautiful mountains and every morning before work I would go on walk with my friend Casey. We both had dogs so it was perfect. Smelling the fresh air was invigorating and nature’s beauty intoxicating. We would talk and wouldn’t even notice the miles we were walking. Now years later, in hindsight I realize those were some of the best times of my life (the simple times). I wasn’t in a hurry to get to my next destination I took the time to feed my soul.

More recently my son and I started going to the movies every Tuesday. One week I choose the movie the next time he does. After the movie we talk and he tells me about his thoughts. Since starting this outing we talk a lot more. When he comes home he tells me about his day, he talks to me about his friends, he even talks to me about his crush (a reality I must except). I was always in a hurry before, in a hurry to get supper cooked, do the laundry, get to bed and start all over again.

My point in all of this…taking the time to slow down has taken me to a better place. It has helped me realize work will always be waiting but kids grow up and moments pass…if I’m not enjoying them now when will I?

artwork credit – Jean-Auguste Dominique Ingres “Madame Moitessier”


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