It’s been over a month since my last post. I started a new job as a unit manager on a rehabilitation unit. The staff on my unit are hostile and most of them have never worked elsewhere. These ladies are very resistant to any kind of change and quite content with complacency. “This is the way we’ve always done it”. I’ve been attempting to maintain a positive attitude regardless of their hostility which has been almost a full-time job. I’m putting in 12 hour days 5 days a week. Initially I was working every day of the week. I stopped working weekends in order to maintain my mental health and my commitment to Self-Love. However the working 12 hour days has to stop! I’ve struggled with leaving work at a reasonable hour because the expectations and workload is unrealistic for one person. My unit is 37 beds but the turn-over rate is the killer with constantly changing patients and health status. In order to honor my commitment to Self-Love, I have to put a limits – learning to work 8 hours then quitting for the day regardless of the amount of work left to be completed. I struggle with not taking the hostile behavior personal. It’s easy to internalize someone’s negative behavior as a personal a problem if you haven’t learned that someone else’s problem is not your problem and has nothing to do with you! I’ve been successful at constantly reminding myself I don’t own the problems of others. When my staff act like jerks towards me I let it go and remain productive. In the past I would have wasted precious time on wondering what I did wrong to cause he/she to act in such a way. I’m still working on personal growth but I have to acknowledge that and I’ve made progress!
Art credit – “The Honorable Edith Helen Chaplin” by Philip Alexius de Laszlo