Some days I’m miss him some days and some days I am disgusted with the amount of time I gave to him. I am responsible for allowing it to continue. Although I also forgive myself for I did not see then what I see and understand now. I was shrouded in love and hope and this want to be a family. Allowing the same relationship to continue now with the knowledge would be harmful to my self respect. People who use will continue to benefit from the situation as long as you allow it. You have to set boundaries and limits. He keeps coming back because I allow the behavior to continue but if I finally want to move forward I have to change my own behavior.